Hello 2121ezzo,
I feel your struggle as I find myself in the same situation, I want to let you know that you have my support and prays, don’t think of yourself as something different than a normal person, casino’s give millions for psychological researches on how to addict us and we are just manipulated, we think of euphoria as happiness, but it’s not, that feeling makes us happy, but we are not rational, we need to find peace with everything that surrounds us and this is how we will find true happiness. Thinking about the losses and how to gain them back by depositing is again manipulation, forget about the money, money is not everything, you can sleep 5hours a day work 3 jobs and gain a lot of money, set up mental/professional goals for the near/far future and chase them.
I am here for you my friend.
Best wishes,
