Hello
39 is a great age to re-valuate your life, to look at what has gone before but recognise there is a lot more ahead that is worth fighting for.
However much you think that you love gambling, it is a fact that gambling does not love you and never will; she is a demanding mistress who offers quick gratification in return for misery and devastating feelings of failure.
Nobody know when a true recovery starts not the gambler, not those who love them and not those who offer professional support – but – and it is a big but – true recoveries do start and they are amazing. I am lucky enough to have seen true recoveries and heard the joy in the lives of those who have embraced them. I want to hear that joy in your life.
You have written about enough wreckage in your life so far and yet here you are willing and able to try again. It is worth the battle, the rewards are massive.
I will follow your thread and look forward to hearing your progress – just one day at a time.
Velvet
