Thanks G Rec!
My last bet was on Sept 6th so this is a big day for me. One month gamble free! The first few weeks were really tough. I had some urges yesterday but had my barriers in place making gambling very difficult but not impossible.
I chose to stick with not gambling. Most of money is transferred to pay bills and I make sure to have some spend money on myself. Going out to eat, shopping whatever that makes life a little easier. Why do we have such a hard time with this concept?
I feel like I’m in a crazy time warp. Time is moving so quickly and I can’t imagine getting myself involved with gambling. As of now, I don’t have enough time in the day. The days are flying. On the other hand. if I gambled I would manage to stay up all hours to gamble and start the vicious cycle all over again.
I don’t have the most exciting life but that’s okay. I’m doing normal stuff like normal people. Food shopping, walking the dog, going out to eat. All good stuff. When I gamble I become this other person. The compulsive gambler pleading for forgiveness. It’s simple I don’t gamble because I’m happy with this normal life. This is me, a relaxed person. I have to be careful because gambling urges do creep up suddenly without warning.
If I win I will lose. Simple logic because I’m a compulsive gambler.
Off to do nothing..but that’s fine with me.
