Hi Billit, you have a lot of support available. If you start your own thread in this forum you will get a lot of feedback and advice. Connectng to one of the New member groups or Helpline will also give you ideas about other support.
Worm, well done on not gambling. Well done on not gambling. If havign no money available was the reason then use that now. How about making yourself accountable so that IF you gambled again your wife would definitely find out – that is always a big deterrent, removing the secrecy. It sounds like you are in teh UK so have you heard of Gamstop? https://www.gamstop.co.uk/ that should ban you from all UK registered sites. There is a lot of support available. I facilitate some of the groups here, there are New member Groups on a Monday and Thursday evening (UK time) hopefully I will see you there.
You can stop gambling.