I’m not going to mince words or offer platitudes. You, like me, are really fucked up. You need professional help, whether psychological or via counsellor or therapist. Someone who can be objective. Instead of paying for a bet, put that money into a therapist.
Fuck Gamblers Anonymous, and any other of the “anonymous” groups (AA, NA, etc). They will not help you. GA will perversely addict you to staying with them for life, in order to get better from your “disease”. Gambling is not a disease, it’s a choice.
By pretending the choices we make is because of a “disease”, it alleviates us of responsibility for our actions and choices.
This is not a physical health issue. Sorry, we made these choices and fucked our lives up. Time to own up to it.
We have psychological issues that really mess with our ability to cope with the choices we make.
So what are we going to do? Blame things outside of our locus of control, or take charge and do something?