Hi. Sorry about if you did not get enough support before. I read only when I have extra time when I do not work on myself. I would say that I understand your thoughts and how gambling effect your mental and physical. I thought I could control it by myself and that If I just win a few hundred in a day. It would be enough and I can control it. But addiction is tricky. A lot of people here including me , We know that we should stop when we reach to that win we limit it to ourselves but when we reach it, We always feel like we can win a little bit more. Just a little more. Then everything becomes blurry. At least to me , I ended up with a big pile of debt after that.
What I am saying is , Be careful. If you can control and limit yourself. Good but please remember that you might not be able to. I do not want you to end up with a big pile of debts like a lot of us here.
Good luck!