Thanks to you, Kin for your ever faithful interest and concern.
Kathryn, “standing up and dusting off” becomes more difficult every time, but I will CRAWL back on my belly like a beaten animal, licking my raw wounds along the way, one day at a time.
Charles, since you always ask “what are you doing differently?”. I will say a few words on what I did differently in recent months.
1. I stopped going to casinos.
2. I started gambling online (took to it like a moth to a flame and retreated into a type of solitary confinement where I became untouchable. Anyone who ever gambled online will relate)
3. Last night BIG “different action”took place. I “won” (sic) and decided to withdraw. They said “you must wait a week”. That of course is the downfall of a CG and the sure guarantee that the casinos never lose.
I WOKE UP! Locked down the laptop. Called my husband (I was ill , in bed from 2 horrendous “all nighters”, online) and told him I had something serious to discuss, (Very difficult to get his attention-he lives in the “Garden/DIY “world) Long story short, I drummed it into his skull that I CANNOT be allowed use the laptop unsupervised as I had gambled and “won” and there is a payout pending. He agreed and I am presently giving this update with him lurking in the background, (Incidentally , he doesn’t seem to know the difference between GT and Gambling Sites—MEN!!!)
Anyway today is 12th…my Fund still exists but has been almost halved but I still continue to pay in the standing order every month. It will be fully restored by Christmas.
I just had an email from the casino telling me half of my winnings will be released to my bank in 2 to 3 days and the remainder in about ten days…I can wait…
Hard lesson learned.
Today I will not think about not gambling.
I will be calm and patient.
I will shop for groceries ( I have vouchers) I will walk.
I will pull weeds in the garden.
I will cook.
I WILL LIVE IN THE REAL WORLD.
Best wishes to one and all.
I will post on everyone’s thread in the near future, when I can see straight.
To RG , I think of you every day and am praying for your dear dad.
To Lizbeth, Thank God your daughter wasn’t injured in that accident .
Steev, happy travels. Thinking of you carrying luggage through train stations (normal activity of everyday life)
Monica, you know you are always in my thoughts and prayers.
IDI, I don’t know how you have functioned all those years ,gambling online. I would be DEAD. Carrying a mobile SMART phone is like carrying a loaded shot gun. (By the way I was never good at Maths -especially percentages)
Meghna, Thank God you have gotten to grips with this killer addiction.
Sherrie, you are The Queen of England in disquise! (hope you’re a Royalist!!)
To one and all I say this
Stay miles away from online gambling
It comes with a serious health risk (not to mention the financial suicide it can cause)
That’s all I can write for now…hubby is giving me filthy looks and tut tutting…..