Just take ONE Step, Dan
The First One
“admit I am powerless over gambling and my life has become unmanageable”
Every one who walks into a GA Meeting takes that Step.
I think I’m still on Step One.
Nobody will push you to talk about how many steps you have taken. I think, in Life as well as GA we step forwards , sideways and backwards. Some stand still. There is no rush Dan. Even if you are wobbling on Step 1 and not gambling, that’s a great move.
Time passes.
It waits for no man.
Time heals.
Time is precious.
Time is far more valuable than money.
I regret the time I wasted , far more than the money I lost.
Give yourself time, Dan.
Your present frame of mind is one of fear and dread. I understand that fully. “Why” played hell in my head for years.
I couldn’t answer my own “Why” until I realised that for a CG there is no “Why” because “Why NOT” takes over when we succumb to the very first urge to gamble and give ourselves the licence to continue until the awful crash comes.
I can guarantee you, Dan that 12 months from now you will look back and see things differently. I think we sometimes do those Steps unknownst to ourselves. Every time we say no to gambling its a step towards recovery.
Try to forgive yourself.
You still have time to make up for your mistakes.
One day at a time.
