thanks I-did-it , thanks for your support.
I know it is a fakebook, but what affect on me is to see almost every one from my old “friends ” are married with one or two kids having their small family and this part is not fake, I am happy for them but it reminded me that I am really behind in this part of my life, I have been almost in a coma for few years. years from my life vanished, i can;t remember any good moment or activity from that period, all what i remember is that I was totally occupied by this addiction without knowing that I am addict. then I wake up before 3 years from now and since then I am trying to repair all the damage that has been done during that “coma”, i am in the correct rode but i am driving slow and some times in the opposite direction but i hope i will reach to where i need to reach.
the other aspect is i saw my early pictures on faceook that dates back 10+ years, it takes me back to last years in university and the first years of work, this reminds me how I was thinking, all my dreams , all my hopes, all what I hoped to accomplish in the life to come. and I am now “in the future” 10+ years from that pictures and every thing is collapsed. this is not completely related to the addiction, I chose some wrong choices but the addiction is a huge part of it.
and yes i got over it “at least for now”.
but your point regarding what we learned during this addiction period is really priceless, now I know my self better than any time before. I am seeing the life from different perspective now, that I wouldn’t have if i didn’t pass through this bad experience.