Got through the week without gambling. Need to address a few more issues this week. I committed here to not gambling and so far so good. I am committing further to stop playing slots on demo mode and watching you tube gambling videos. Aside from one or two gambling sessions my week has been the same as any other. Work, watch movies and TV, play games on my laptop, watch videos or live streamers on my phone. This is what I am used to to get me through the time between gambling sessions. I can’t just suddenly become interested in other things. I thought about going to a shopping centre about 5 miles from where I live yesterday but didn’t go. I’ve lived here for 5 years and only ever been shopping there once. Venturing out to do anything just seems so alien to me now and I worry about feeling anxious in these sorts of places and seeking refuge in the familiarity of a bookies or on arcade. Not going to overthink it….this week has gone well…focus for the week ahead is to stay off the free slots and videos…all going well this time next week I will have achieved that goal and can set another. Goodnight all!
