A thousand days is a long time in the life of a young person.
One day is all a recovering gambler needs to lay claim to.
Let today be that day, for you.
One bet is all a CG needs to self destruct. I know because I have done it so many times. Every “win” was lost again and every loss was chased, in vain.
It ALWAYS ends in tears.
I feel your pain.
Having easy access to £ 800 is not a good idea for people with a gambling addiction and as you say, that money is hard earned.
Living a double life takes it’s toll. ‘Been there too. Secrecy and hidden funds are our passage to further gambling.
For what it’s worth, intelligence doesn’t make us immune to addiction. When we place that first bet, we lose our rational sense and immediately become powerless over gambling.
Well done on coming back here for help. It’s not easy to “eat humble pie”.
I wish you well in your studies and in recovery.
