K,
Thanks for your words of encouragement. Yes my husband does know about the gambling issues…..unfortunately he shares my addiction…. He is normally with me…..while his addiction is bad he has a tiny bit more self control. Not much, but more than me. We did talk today….cut up our player cards and called the casino and asked to be removed from the mailing list. That should be a small help. We discussed how we are getting so much older and all the things we could have had if we didnt waste so much money over the last 15 years. But we decided we can cry over it or learn from it. There are so many things we will Never have because of our addiction but I guess all I can do is find new things to look forward to. One day at a time.
As far as exclusion….the place where I work can be stressful and difficult. Some of the people look for weaknesses in others and would see this as an opportunity to see me fail. That would be more stress than I need right now.
The first week will be easy,….still suffering from the damage caused…..next week will be a little rougher. I am hoping time will help and that I dont bore people on this site too much. Guess as long as I can read it and reflect, it will help me.
I have to appreciate the good things.. my beautiful family, my granddaughters, my doggies. These are the things that make me happy and I cant lose sight of that.
I havent gone more than 30 days without gambling in years…..so lets see how this goes. I can do this. I WILL do this! Thank you again for your encourgement!