thanks Vera yea it was about time i posted im 3 weeks gamble free thank God. theirs a noise coming from the car that ***** investigating hoping its the exhaust but have a feeling its not just know i cant put it off any longer. the car also ***** serviced been over a year and the timing belt ***** changed its funny how you can always find money for a gamble but it breaks your heart to pay your bills. well odaat i hope to get the car completely sorted in the next month or 2 and im going to go about the noise today. Also have to get heating oil in about 2 months that has to be a definite. Made a firm decision yesterday to have no contact with my female friend we talked yesterday although it wasnt ideal timing as she was hungover and had a cold but one thing i will always remember from the conversation was i asked her was their any chance if i got myself sorted out in the future and she said she didnt know and then she said sure your not going to get yourself sorted out. **** maybe shes right but i think i will try and use that as motivation to better myself. she wants to be friends i just cant be at this moment in time i wished her a happy birthday yesterday for october. it is what it is end of an era but im ok i think **** it thats life. hope to get her out of my system soon and no contact is best for me think shes going to contact at xmas but sure i know fine well things change. my **** should lift soon and continued absintence from this addiction will do me the world of good. my priorties atm are getting myself sorted haha and doing what i can for my mum and dad my mum took an infection on her leg on her shin she was in agony i took her to the doctors and its getting better with cream and an antibotic shes had lots of we things wrong with her lately God help herjust glad she dosent know i was gambling everythings going to be ok odaat. Finally a bit of good news great result in the football last night! what dosent kill you makes you stronger!
