Hi Buddy
Sorry to hear about your ‘blip’ !!!!!! I can say that I have been very close on a number of occasions from the very start too. Its amazing how our brains can so easily forget the misery just by placing or the thought of placing a bet. I can tell you R2C that I have been a fool too many ***** to keep ********. I think you are very brave to keep posting. I look in on the forum most days, but tend not to write too much, as I never know what to say .
I have tried to think a lot about why I wanted to gamble and it was the thought of having more money mainly (as well as a buzz). But when i think of the ***** when I won and felt a little happiness, it was always ‘short term’. I saw the additional money as a way of having more funds to continue the gambling……….and we all know what happens every time. I would buy some clothes and spoil my wife and go on a hol, and then blow the lot again and more and be much further in debt than ever. This cycle has continued for 30 years at least. I understand the cycle, but its trying to recondition my brain. I am REALLY trying to seek pleasure from the simplest things, walks, cinema, family, watching sports etc……..and in the end there is nothing else any of us could really want thats ‘extra’ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We are always chasing a fantasy…………how we would spend thiese monies if we won BIG !!!! we would only do what we do when we are not gambling !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Watch sport, have a beer with freinds etc etc so the gambling really does become pointless. I know this is all just talk and its so much harder to do, but all I will say is I will continue to keep trying, even if I do wfall off the wagon. Just keep trying my freind. I hope to keep fighting and will keepan eye out for more positive posts from you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cheers
Ed
