Trying

Hello im jeff,

I have been a gambler for the past 12 years.
For the first time i whant to admit i have got a real problem.
Never really talked about it to anyone.
Bud have always known about it.
I have always paid my bills, bud whatever was left i gambled away, surely won sometimes, bud always lost more the next days.
It has been really bad this year, my weight sky rocketed to 103 kgs.
Eating bad, drinking to much, smoking 2 packs a day.
So 3 months ago i said to my self you are gonna change youre life.
I quit smoking (to this day not 1 sig smoked)
I lost 16 kgs to 87kg today and still going down.
Exercising a lot, eating healthy.
And i feel great physically.
Bud mentally im a reck.
I havent been able to stop gambling wich maybe was and is my biggest problem.
Every single time when i lost my last buck, i said no more.
Bud the next month it always happens again.
Now im sick of it, and hoping by first time talking about it, and keeping a bit of a blog it will help me resist to start again.

Ps im sorry if my english is bad, or the way i tell my story, have never done anything like this