Hi Sam84xx,
Welcome to the forum, and well done on acknowledging your problem, and taking a positive issue.
While most people on this forum can associate with the low point that you are currently feeling, there are some positives including that you are looking for help, there is great support available, and that you have a good job with good pay meaning that you can get yourself back into a good financial position if you can stay gamble free.
As Dunc mentioned, there are the new member’s groups on Mondays and Thursdays which I would strongly suggest giving a god, I found them very useful when I first joined the forum.
I hope you stay journaling, and look forward to following your journey,