Well if you have kids as you metioned they know what going on , our children are sad that thier cg dad is gone and they miss him and wish that the was here full time.The oldest said the other day that he doesnt know his dad anymore,its like part time . Dont let time go by got theapy and to those ga meeting all the time they told me that in order for my ga husband has to go all the time .life is waiting you just have to get ahold of it and not the casino of you .Your family wants you there wants you to ok but you have to try with your heart and with all the help that you can get ….try dont hide oopen your self and let your love ones in i wished my cghusband understood that. dont push them away.. best of luck and dont give up
