I don’t know why I am feeling so broken now. I had a good day at work. I did my reading for the day. Went to the gym and I worked hard. It is a good day in general. So why this deep sadness now!!!. Why these Damn thoughts now.
The great advice from Jorden Peterson is to compare yourself with who you were yesterday not to where someone else is today.
Yes, but how the f*** I can forget who I could have been today if I didn’t gamble. I was much better than all my friends now I am so f***** broken person who is trying to get his acts together wrestling with life every day, sleeping with his eyes opened, afraid of his addiction demon who is waiting in the dark to attack him and to break him even more.
life is suffering yes, but this is too much…
damn, I can understand to be afraid of an external factor, but to be afraid of yourself is f****** hard.
- This reply was modified 5 years, 5 months ago by Dark Energy.