Hi Christoferer
I am delighted to read that you are doing well now but I wondered what brought you here to post now.
I would be pleased to support you, if you have any residual pain or lingering anger that is getting in the way of you letting go of a dreadful experience. In my opinion, your husband would not have deliberately traded you in for poker, a man controlled by an addiction would almost certainly have been a slave to it, making it difficult for him to make logical and reasonable decisions.
It is a waste of time, I think, to try and make sense of the senseless but there is often another way to looking at something that has hurt you so deeply and, for me, looking for and finding that other way, made all the difference to my future.
It would be great if you started your own thread and maybe we could make your ‘doing well’ even better. Writing thoughts down often helps to clarify confusion and distress.
Velvet