Thanks guys..
I don’t know what to say. Rehab starts in may.. I’ve maxed out all
My finances again. In the hole for nearly 50k in 3 days.. I haven’t processed it and I can’t stop going deeper.. this monster has full control on me.. I’m losing hope..
It’s like money means
Nothing. Anymore… before I would be mad at losing 500$.. then 5000… now add another 0’on. 3 days ago i had
Cleared all debt.. and had savings again. The worst part is.. I am now dead inside.. I can’t eat, sleep; workout. And I am
Not even doing stuff at work. Next I will lose my job. My gf dumped me last night but I’m trying to get her back. She doesn’t understand addiction.. she doesn’t know how
I can go to GA.. talk about Gamblignwitg her and then go right back
To it.. I try to tell her it’s not me.. it’s the addictive part of my Brain. She said it’s an excuse and to just stop. I’ve lost my life. In 72 hours. Just blew out another 10k of credit . It’s hell on earth guys. I wish this upon no one. I hope I make it