I got to admit, I have never been this bad. Yes I have lost in excess of £250,000 during my lifetime and no, I am not a high roller or someone who’s got cash to lose. No sir, I am a man who’s best job paid £20k a year.
But, you have to take responsibilities and writing about your recent relapse, may of been a way to share your disappointment, but people like me, take what you wrote, and gives me satisfaction that knowing what you have just gone through, could very easily be me. I don’t mean this is in any nasty or troll way and I hope you see that, but knowing your disappointment actually Spurs me on more than before I read this post by yourself. This could of very easily been the other way round. You reading about me going to the casino and playing slots (which is my addiction). Like you, it’s around the same length of time I have been clean, if that’s the correct word.
So take something from this, learn from it and know that you are actually helping other people. We can all read and relate to what you have just done, but you are not alone. 18 months is still a massive achievement, so reset and try and pass that now. You know you can do it, we all know you can do it and draw strength from all of us, who have your back.
So dust yourself down, make sure you can not get to that cash and you go again, back into an individual who is going to beat this. If you feel yourself being tempted, get on here and tell us and hopefully by communicating it stops you. But you know all this, you gotta be strong when it matters.
I wish you continued best wishes.
Stay Safe
Plaza