Good job with the exclusions and debt arrangements! Its not easy, thats for sure so youve taken a really good step!
nThe sadness you feel, I get that. When I first stopped I got soooo mad! I was furious. I didnt want to gamble and couldnt understand why I felt that way until someone pointed out that I was in withdrawals! Yep! That was exactly it. Your sadness could be a lot of things…grief…its a loss, pure and simple. Regret….something that does us no favours, dwelling on what we have lost isnt healthy, and its hard not to do it. But that money is never coming back and you need to accept it. The win will never be big enough…ever. We are addicted and the money is the means. Let it go and start over. Im not sure how old you are but you come across as fairly young with your whole life in front of you. Grab it with both hands. The longer you dont gamble the less you will think about it and your life will fill with other things, normal things.
nYou can have a happy life, you really can. It takes work, and life is not going to be all sunny post gambling, life is just that, life, and stuff happens to everyone. But gambling will not be fogging your mind, you will be able to think, this addiction consumes our every waking moment (and yep even In Our dreams sometimes) But you can manage this addiction. Do the work and you will be amazed. Take care, Kathryn x
