Thanks Steev – I definitely need advice.
I try to notice my moods, feelings and thoughts and monitor where they lead.
Today I guess, despite that really strong post I wrote earlier, I feel unvalued.
Of course within hours gambling thoughts have started to emerge.
Not thoughts of a big win today – I realise that working gives me enough money – but just warm, fuzzy thoughts about that great feeling when you have just put your money in at the start and you have all to play for. It’s like a buzz, a strong sedative – just a wonderful, warm feeling.
Of course we know it usually leads to a hangover from hell but for that short while it feels so good !
So how to I lift myself today? I am tempted to turn to my number 2 drug of choice – food.
How can I during this lonely, planet-pause crisis find joy? This could be a struggle. Perhaps we need extra chats on here ?