I feel I have a lot in common with you and inafalsetto but I did as “Newday”, I did not stop in time. I hope you do. I hope inafalsetto does! But I know that you have to be ready to stop. I wrote in here but didn’t listen so you may not listen to us but you should all just quit gambling.
I hardly believe and do not recommand anyone to play for fun. If someone writes in here, they can’t play for fun anymore and will never be able to do it again.
Perhaps you should tell your wife about this? She probably supports you? How can you prevent a relapse? Remember, you won and you will regret when you lose it again! I felt ill for days…You may have experienced the same – do you want to go through it all again?