Hi Lily,
My last post was slightly rushed, so apologies for the garbled mess.
I knew I should have posted and I was a bit annoyed with myself for not as I know it would help me. I was just consumed with what was going on.
This week is much better. I’m putting healthy distance back between me and the gambling. I have more time and a better mindset for my friends. I just feel better.
When i said “I know it isnt CG” I meant that I knew that the anger wasnt him, it was totally his addiction and I could see that so clearly on his face when I finally saw him on Sunday.
He wants to withdraw all of the money he has been saving through work to buy a car. This is again something I’ve heard many times before, he has enough saved for a car. He has asked me to be there on Wednesday when he gets paid to make sure I take the money away from him. I’m not even sure he has actually asked for it back yet so I dont know how to play it at all. The last thing I want is more arguments.
I agree he is moving slowly but i’m just not sure he will ever get to a point that he will actually want to deal with it head on. I think he would like to tackle it but its just way too big of a trauma for him to do. I’d love him to because underneath all of the other issues, he is the most incredible guy. He is just consumed by it all.
Yeah the weekend with my family will be nice.I dont get to see them anywhere near as much as i should. Guess that will change if the job interview goes well.
Logic x