Meghna83 – thank you so much for the support and great advise, I read it to my partner and he agreed with what you said and it felt good for him to see someone else’s perspective. We have spoken a bit more about this and are working on getting counselling together (well he listens), I am currently back at uni and have no free time at all and I know a part of him is hoping being busy distracts me. He is hand feeding me drips of money and wants proof of all bills I pay etc, he is going away this weekend which will help me put everything in perspective as I haven’t had much alone time, I really need the time to think and process all that has happened over the week.
I am continuing to remain CG free and remind myself CG will just ruin me and today I choose not to let it.