I couldn’t tell any one other than my husband
firstly because I felt shattered, broken, conlfused, ashamed
Secondly his life is affected by my actions and vice versa, he needed to know
Others do not need to know as it doesn’t directly affect them. My gaining or losing financially will not affect them financially
I have relapsed at times and couldn’t always share them with my husband immediately because i felt terrible about what I had done. I began questioning my character and just wanted the earth to swallow me uP. I did tell him, in the end, the most part of what was going on with me and he has been helping me with barriers. Gamstop, taking away cards, and stopped giving me more money each week (now he’s putting it in savings himself) I am 190% ok with that.
I feel pain causing him pain
He has prayed and fasted for my and my baby’s wellbeing.
I have lost nothing by telling him and instead gained support, respect and care from him. Of course he was upset to begin with, not knowing or understandlong what problem gambling was or looked like.
It’s when we fall and remain loyal and honest with our closest that earns us the respect. I love him for all his kind words and encouragement since this struggle started.