Day 3 now. And I’m doing some nice things even though I’m still on a tight budget. My next contract doesn’t start for another 2 months so I need to budget well but the good news is I have good work until the end of the year.
I was going to use the word if, but when I’ve saved my money I need to I know I’ll be so happy with myself.
I’ve deleted all the gambling videos I’ve been watching, I requested self exclusion from a site ud been using but they’re making it incredibly difficult. They want scans of my ID and passport and my debit cards, they claim it’s to protect from money laundering but we all know the real reason.
Any more money I’ll deposit I may aswell wave goodbye too. If I gamble anymore I’ll be in serious trouble and I’m going to remind myself of this.
I’m in a few thousand debt but without gambling and working I’ll be able to pay this off this year.
If I gamble I’ll only make it worse and risk my chance of a clean slate.
Gambling isn’t fun for me anymore, it’s an addiction and I can’t stop, I lose the value of money and make myself feel like a low life piece of crap.
I’m not going to gamble today. I’m not going to feel sorry for myself, I’m going to keep reminding myself why I don’t and cannot do it anymore.
This is my real streak.