I’ve come to accept that I can’t finish my current subject and bachelors project at the same time while keeping a positive and healthy state of mind. It’s too much of a burden to take on at the moment. I only just recently took a relapse so I’m not as strong as I would like to believe I am. I’ve been stressing a lot lately, which have made me anxious and unhappy for some time. This is why I’ve come to the conclusion of postponing my bachelor’s project till the end of July instead of the start of May. This will cost me an attempt (1 out of 3) and it will be costly for my pride, and it will cost me the most of my summer holidays. But long term it is for the best. I can already feel a big relief inside of me and I feel much happier because I don’t feel overwhelmed. I can finish my studies by focusing on one thing at a time, while working on myself (something even more important than my studies).
I don’t think I will regret this decision, I just hope I do it for the right reason and don’t use it as an excuse to procrastinate.