I was sad to read about your relapse because you were one of the first journals I read on this forum. But sometimes relapsing is part of the recovery – we just have to learn from it and move on.
I’ve got to be honest with you. When I noticed that you hadn’t posted on your journal for a while I got worried for you because usually, that means you’ve lost focus of your recovery process. And I can relate a lot to that. There comes a time in my recovery process where my addiction isn’t posing any immediate threats and the whole process of recovery is becoming cumbersome and trivial. This is where I, in the past, slipped up and essentially started the process leading to a relapse. That’s why I know that I need to do SOMETHING, however small that something must be, daily to remind myself of this addiction and its consequences.
I’m glad you had the courage to come back to the forum, Rock. Stay strong, stay aware, stay positive, and stay gambling-free 🙂
Best of luck
Chris