Hi RG,
Many things is new to me except my gambling which has stay with me for more than 30 years for a man more than 50.
I do not claim to have stayed gamble free but hope to do so one day because I have a real gambling problem. I have stop gambling many times but I have not been able to “stay gamble free.” for long.
I first landed in GT way back in yr2008, the longest I stay gamble free was one year ever since. Every time I get into gambling problem, I return to this place. i have no intention to leave this place now.
My self belief and self confident over gambling have failed me every single time. My many years experience in sport punting have always got me into deep trouble.
There will always be a time when I can spot a win, if I can resist this temptation now and not gamble, I could not guarantee that I can resist the same temptation next time, the bigger I win in a single bet, the more I will lose back. I found that out the hard and painful ways every single time when I start gambling because I never and cannot stop at one gamble.
What works for me was following direction and this direction must not come from me, I have tried 12 steps recovery program, and professional counselling in the past, I am trying to follow the teaching in the bible now. All these fleeing from temptation is new to me! lent fasting is new to me, It has given me hope to do the same thing to gambling.