Awe Vera my heart aches for you. Please know that you are far from a fool!!! You are one of the most intelligent people I have met from a far. You have so much wisdom beyond words to offer. Unfortunately I know the feelings you are feeling oh too well. This addiction SUCKS!! I promise this too shall pass. You did it before and I have faith that you will do it again. I will be praying for you. God will get you through this. I know he will. Ugggh! I wish there was something more I could do or say to make it all go away for you. (And all of us).
