Peter – you are not stupid – you are addicted.
If we were stupid we could not have sustained this lifestyle for very long .
I think it is important that you understand that becoming addicted is not your fault .
It is something which has been imposed on us.
Many people gamble and never become addicted .
I felt that once we see this addiction as something we should not feel guilty for having- once we truly understand that this is not our fault – once we accept our brains are just wired differently than people who are not addicted to gambling- then we understand that we have to take precautions to protect ourselves from this addiction.
We need to protect ourselves – we need to take every step possible to stop this destroying us completely .
People have different afflictions in life – this is ours .
People manage and survive all sorts of things – we can manage and survive this .
We deserve a good life Peter – and we will have it – we just need to manage this one horrible illness life has thrown at us .
Keep strong Peter .