Hi Velvet,
Thanks for your reaction and especially the thing about selfishness, indeed, I say to myself many times I will stop for my wife and my little children but in fact; I should stop first form myself and this will result into something good for my family. Thanks for that.
About wife handling my finances, I have to admit it is painfully hard to tell her about this issue. I know it will help, yet, I don’t think I can do it at the moment. Maybe I need some time, to prepare and tell her. More than 20 accounts has been blocked, and it seems, for the moment, I do not have any access to another site due to the country I live in now.
However today is day 5. I do not feel urges to gamble because I do not have lots of money at the moment. I admit I am a little afraid when I start saving money due to gamble break but am seeking information at the moment on how to make restrictions with bank card or NO use of the card at all, like passing it to my wife and live with cash only.
Still confusing, but it takes time and I am pretty sure it will be ok one day. I must. By the way, do you think this therapy online will be good support or should I talk with professional face to face?