Hi Kathryn

Hi Kathryn
I agree with you about the self worth. Outside of the financial burden caused, the shame and self pity was the worst for me. I have struggled with self esteem most of my life, and never felt more pathetic than asking for financial help, and hiding my habit. Stepping back and taking it all in. Going through the stages of addiction/grief
Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance.
–sadness in a sick way because I was convinced that I enjoyed playing…..which I am sure I did….however, winning was just a delay in the inevitable losing that was to follow!
Still on the right path. Actually lost track of the exact number, but I know the effort is the best I have ever put forth!!!