PS. Have to get this off of my chest!

I’m so mad at myself. When I had money (from Husbands life insurance policy), I blew it! Not on just gambling. I wanted to please others also. I helped family members, took them on trips, bought things for them. I know thats in the past but I can’t talk to any of them about my worries. In fact, the last time my Sister was here, out of the blue she told me that she pays off her credit cards every month and has never been late on a car payment, ect. Well, she doesn’t have any living expenses.  Her rich boyfriend takes care of everything   Which lead me to believe that she and Mom were talking about me. Why would I confide to them? I’m in this by myself.