Hi Monica, Sorry so late responding. Still sleeping lots. Part of the problem with my post is that I shouldn’t be trying to post when I’m still in this state. Nothing that puts together more than a few sentences anyway.
I’m sorry if what I said came across or harsh. I can totally understand not wanting to undersell your self. Not wanting to take less than you are “worth”. But I wonder if there are some positions you could apply for to tide you over. There is a lot of ground between top of your field and doing menial labour (which is perfectly respectable by the way). And I would think self sufficiency would be preferable to the current state of affairs. Don’t put all or most of your self value on your job or the social status and income with benefits that comes with it sometimes. In a flash that can be gone. And you are truly more valuable than a job title or a degree. I pray you get a job worthy of all the hard work you’ve put in. Those of us that no longer have those capabilities or maybe never did aren’t lesser. And filling a slightly lower position to take care of your self seems quite a sensible thing to me. Work times are tough didn’t you say? I’m sure you wouldn’t be the only one in your field doing the same. Not every job can be in paradise but it can be a job and a means to take care of ones self.
Anyway, I guess I just really worry about you not having enough to take care of yourself properly. And a really good job another 4 or 6 months from now, can you wait it out? Anyway,enough on the job front. Just consider that it doesn’t have to be all or nothing. There is a lot in between.
So good that you seem to be getting more of what you wanted and needed out of the ladies program. The part about negative emotions made me think you may have wanted to say a thing or two to me about my “real woman” comment. I apologize. It was a poor choice of words! I was always taught that any work, if honest is respectable. The women in my family were cleaners to a CEO. You worked til you found your dream job lol (unless both legs were broken, then you were off the hook). So we will keep praying the “perfect job for you” comes along soon. Please take care of yourself. I haven’t read your latest post so heading there now.
Laura