Helpful posts. Nothing new to report today except to comment on something I have thought about and laura mentions it. Something is better than nothing. I have contemplated this for a long time and for me work wise something Is actually not better than nothing. I can’t fit myself into a low level job, the cap doesn’t fit, maybe for a week so I can get tax refunded for this year but no more. I can’t squeeze cmyself into that space.
I am grateful I am still alive and slowly but steadily recovering my health.
This year is all about recovery and I set my intentions for this year at New Year but I will add a few more.
I would like my family to come together and support each other. We are all challenged in one way or another.
I would like to work at a few things. Must have autonomy and make a difference at what I do. That is important to me. I would like to send the winter months ie January and February away in a warmer climate as I have realised I no longer function well in the winter. I never have really but as I get I,set I hibernate more and don’t want to go out into the cold.
All of the intentions I set out for this year are achievable. I am still here alive on the planet and where there is life there is always a degree of hope. I have no idea at why recovery just hasn’t happened for me, maybe because I have been at this point a few times, although circumstances never as bad as this time round. I have been gamble free in the past for long periods and every relapse was more insane. The longest I was in limbo although not as destitute was the time before this one at four months, now it has been six months. What a waste of time, life and talent.
