Just sat down for a few hours with my partner and it certainly is not looking good with my financial situation. For me, it was an awful experience, felt sick as we waded through the mess. Went and had a shower straight after to wash away the sweat and had a wee cry…my partner was very business like and factual, his way of dealing with such situations.
Basically, I will loose my house if another plan isn’t available. My partner has offered to pay my arrears for this month but I have declined. I’m holding onto hope that Christians against poverty will formulate another plan for me….at the end of the month.
Afterwards we sat down and I thanked him for being so supportive, and that he was a good man. I then asked him if he was curious about why this happened in the first place. I was quite taken back by his response…he didn’t want to know or discuss this at all, i pressed him some more about letting him know why, he was adamant that it was in the past now and he didn’t want to discuss it.
Wow! Didn’t see that coming! I think he knows why is started and why it happened! What other reason could there be?
Reflecting on my darker times, I went and cut all my beautiful curly dark hair off, I think I’m the sort of person that needs to talk through stuff, about my feelings and how others feel. I know it is healthier to express yourself rather than self harm. I know if this relationship is to continue, which is my hope that I will need to find another outlet, other than gambling…