Yes, stress certainly does cause a lot of physical symptoms. I thought I was having a heart attack or at least a stomach ulcer. My despair started to change when I accepted Christ into my life. I prayed and repented and something started to subtly change from that moment on. I dreamed last night that I was going to a new school and that I could not smoke at this school! Probably that the smoking needs to go at some point too. I still have all the problems my appalling gambling habit created. The GA meeting this evening was very powerful. I am used to being the only woman but we were joined by at least 4 new members this evening, 2 of them women. When I went last week I was completely broken. I am still broken but a work in progress and I don’t feel as terrible as I did last week. I feel thankful for hope, gratefully embracing the possibility that I can change with the support from God and fellowship of GA. I need to transform myself. Yes, gambling can lead us into oblivion from the pain of our lives but knowing that there is hope is a wonderful thing for me, as I thought there was none and the on,y way out of the mess I have created was to end it all. It isn’t. I am working the third step which is surrendering to my higher power. I am noticing it now working in my life, and for that I am thankful.
