Afternoon was driving to work. I’ve started to talk to myself and saying that I don’t want to live like this anymore. I’ve cried because of how naive I’ve been. I’ve asked god for help, but I also talk to god to listen me. The money has gone, I will not get them back I need to switch my mind, forget but remember how easy is to make a massive mistakes. No gambling, don’t want to do it, not even fancy. I’m braking up with the devil…. I’m sure that this new journey without gambling will be journey of better me.
I’m trying to get few new techniques of become better person and that is including gambling.
The one problem is…. I’m expecting some bonus from the casino I’ve lost so much money. Probably couple hundreds. I feel like I have to lose it, other way to withdraw my money I need to send my documents – ID , Bank etc but I don’t want to do this at all, this is the reason why I couldn’t withdraw money before which was a part of my keep canceling withdrawing and keep playing with it and loosing more, obviously my fault. I feel like I should just put massive bet and lose it all then after that block my account. My mind is already set that I’ve lost that money and bonus money doesn’t really matter to me. What should I do ? Send passport and all documents and withdraw money or just go one last one, lose it all and self-execute myself?
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” The devil takes away freedom, god gives us freedom and free will if we over use it we end up with devil pact and we will end up being chained like dogs by the devil ”