21/6/2017
2 days ago, i asked for D*****t.com to permanently banned myself from re-opening or re-registered a new account. Then, i installed a gambling blocking apps.
The past 2 days i woke up feeling much better version of myself. I don’t go straight to my laptop to gamble online. Instead, i took time to have a proper breakfast, do some chores and went out with my girlfriend.
From time to time, gambling still crossed my mind, but it wasn’t the urge to play, just the regret that why i started at the first place. I watched some videos on Compulsive Gambling, how they talked about addiction, brain etc…. am i really that sick or addicted??
Anyway, then i said to myself i should stop watching this videos if i want to stop gambling. Out of side, out of mind they said. So the only gambling related thing i will do is to write this journal, talk to nice people at gambling therapy and share the positive energy.
For today, i am doing my financial planning, just to put thing into perspective, to find out financially where do i stand and to make some goals. Then, time for lunch…hehe
I can’t change the past, but for sure i can change my future for the better! 🙂
Have a nice day guys!!