Thank you both so much for your replies.
I guess the thing I am struggling to come to terms with is that I have gambled for years without ever getting carried away. I go to casinos and I find it easy to know when to stop. I dont get ‘urges’. I literally have no idea what came over me today. Do I even have a gambling problem? I have no idea.
Telling my partner at the moment is totally out of the question. How would he ever forgive me? I certainly would find it difficult to understand if he had just blown 6000, given that were not exactly flush with cash to begin with. This is something I need to fix on my own, and maybe it’s something I explain to him once there is light at the end of the tunnel perhaps?
I’ve frantically tried to think of ways of how to earn at least some of the money back (other than gambling obviously). The more I can’t see a way out of this financial hole the more I panic. I was just about done with paying off credit cards I’d racked up over the years, I’ve put myself back to square 1 and I’m so angry with myself.
Thanks again for your comments, hearing other people’s comments really help. I know people are in way more trouble than losing 6000 but in my little bubble that is what I have to show for 10 years in employment and it’s broken my heart.