Hi BlueElvis and welcome back.
As the saying goes – if nothing changes then nothing changes.
So, what can you change? We do all know what happens on payday -that can change. Who could you transfer your wages to when you get paid? How can you make yourself accountable so that you can’t easily access funds with which to gamble? Where do you gambles? What exclusions or barriers can you put in place?
What support cvan you use? There are a lot of GA meetings in the UK, have you been to a meeting?
Why does this addiction have such a hold on you? Because it’s an addiction. Why you and not others? No idea.
The thing is of course that one of the reasons we want to know the “why” is that we think we can sort the “why” out and carry on gambling. That’s how sneaky this addiction is.
The why isn’t important – the important thing is what are you going to DO about it?
Keep posting and let us know the positive actions you are going to take before payday.