Day 3

Today is day 3. 3 days not been losing money. It feels good. Lot of thoughts going on. Wanting money –> thinking of gambling as an option. Then realizing gambling just makes me want to gamble more, like it always does. I can’t walk away when I’m gambling, except when I’ve lost it all. Sometimes I just wanted to lose it all, just so that I can go home… If I don’t gamble I don’t need to walk away in the first place–> Freedom + more money in my pocket. Not gambling= winning. And all I wanted was to win, so I now have what I wanted.