It’s good to become aware of the damage we did through gambling, I-Did-It, but don’t be too quick to pick up the tab for everyone and everything.
I allowed others to lay the blame on me for things that had nothing to do with my gambling. They weren’t even laying blame. More likely I was inviting blame and criticism to punish myself, unconsciously . I refrain from that now but I do have setbacks.
I was a convenient scapegoat for many who refused to take personal responsibility for years.
On an emotional level I carried all the “baggage”. I can’t say I pulled my weight on a practical level but I have learned that carrying the emotional responsibility takes a far greater toll than keeping the lawn cut and the fires lit. I never undermine the hard work my husband does and did all my life but I do know that when the two are not on the same page at every level, one will “go under” from the strain.
Maybe that IS the root cause of why people gamble.
Perhaps we became overwhelmed and had our “meltdown” in what seemed to be a safe way.
Today, I’m having a total “opt out day”.
Ever have one of them?
If I stay out of sight, nobody can argue with me or “bounce” off me or blame or criticize me and the guys who normally opt out can pick up the flack for a change!!!
HA HA!
