Thank you P- I hope things settle as I am going from resigned and happy with my life to tearful all day . I feel like a “has been”.
Thank you also Johnny – I read your post on your own thread – it filled me with hope .
I noticed Rainman has just posted – it’s been a while since He posted on here so I read over his thread –
There was a post written by me on there advising him how I had finally stopped and stayed stopped – it was from 2016. I was giving him advice because I knew what to do .
I felt kinda embarrassed reading it but then the penny dropped .
None of us can ever say we “stayed stopped ”
We can number the days but really every day is a day one
Every day is a day when we have to work hard at not gambling, because all of us are just one gamble away from being back to where we started .
Tomorrow I will be 24 days gamble free.
Tomorrow is another day when I will not gamble .
I will never be able gamble like people who can gamble and stop.
My body works differently.
Day 24 tomorrow
Feeling regretful tonight as I look back and wish I could change the past .
Ps. Please don’t quote the serenity prayer to me lol.