Kin – it’s time to stop. You talk of quitting but continue. The ONLY win for you is stopping. It only took me 24 years to learn that. And a shit load of hard work, wasted time, and money.
I am struggling to walk currently. Losing a person you love or a body part puts things into perspective. They can never come back. Just like your and my gambling should never come back. Cut it out of your life once and for all. It’s the only logical thing to do no matter what urge your brain has. Control your actions and don’t buy or place a bet. One day at a time my friend.