Hey JayKay. Thanks for checking in. Glad to see you’re on week 19. Crazy how bad it used to be. It’s insane how hard it is to save money even though I stopped gambling. I thought for sure I would be out of debt by now but am fighting everyday to claw out. I’m broke again and still owe close to 10,000. I did close most of my cards. I gave up complete control of my finance for a couple months but felt I could resume control again. I have had access to money for close to a month and don’t have any real urges. I have a donut addiction and the place that has amazing donuts has like 20 lotto tickets under the glass. I’d be lying if I didn’t look at those sons of guns. I know deep inside that I can never gamble again. I gambled for close to 25 years with only a few consistent results that are guaranteed. 1. I will hate myself. 2. I’ll go broke. 3. I’m shittier at life when I gamble and it causes pain all around. So those are pretty good reasons plus about 50 more that I can think of.
I do like to come here to keep the ***** going as I forget the number from day to day. I also really love to read everyones stories on occasion as a reminder how ugly and gross our addiction is. I’m a compulsive gambler and will live gamble free for another day. Thanks to all of you and I hope you a all a good recovery!
Day 93.
Jon