Thanks Laura & Velvet for your posts.
Laura, i suppose the point is, that it is not what i do, or what anyone else does to keep busy. Its whatever works for you. Its the power of your own perseverance to stay away.
When i think of gambling i think of times when i didn’t have the money to do the things i wanted. I remember stopping in for a burger one day with my other half and dreading that i didn’t have enough money in my account to pay for the meal. Its not only that i couldn’t pay, it was the fear of being found out for the addictive gambler i was, and then of course the questions and trying to help that would ensue. I don’t know if you are the same as me but i dont cope well with others trying to help. Of course if you need help, there must be something wrong with you, which of course there was.
I feel sick thinking about that day, but i can use that to stay away from the gambling and as a gentle reminder of where i dont want to be